Bigger then myself

For those of you have been through the birthing process, you know what a surreal experience it is . Seeing Liesl come into this world snapped me out of my self-absorbed funk and helped me to see again that I am part of something larger than myself. I live in a world that I try to control, manufacture and conquer. Seeing the birth of my daughter reminded me again that everything is a gift. My wife and I couldn't control her health, when she would arrive or what she looks like. We don't know what her life will be like. We don't know what she will struggle with or be successful at. She will have to live her story before her Author.

For a moment I was a part of something bigger then me and it made me aware that the same God who has hand on my daughter's life, is the same God who has me firmly in his hands. I don't know where my path of life will go and the unique struggles and challenges I will face. I don't know if I will die of cancer or if I will live to be 103. But, St. Paul's words give me comfort and strength as I take on this life of uncertainty and chaos. "For none of us lives to himself alone and none of us dies to himself alone. If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord." (Romans 14:7-8)

Because I belong to Jesus via His death and resurrection, He has promised himself to me and I am free to move into others lives, to think about church in new ways and to love my family boldly.